To make you feel my love

I hope you like this music video :)
please let me know and if you do like it pass it on so others can see

Lauren - Director
Betty - Musician
Sian - Singer and put the video together

Realism

People like to put themselves in a place where things can be great, they think everything is person, the suns shining, the guy you like likes you back but that isn't always the case.

In these past 2 weeks I have realised a number of things:
1. Who is going to be there without me always trying. I thought I had a number of people who would do that but I was wrong and as much as it hurts you just got to carry on.
2. why I tried to keep my Godmother on the good path and not the alcohol...path :s she was always there for me, when nobody wanted to know me not even family she would spend the time with me so I didn't feel so alone and now that she drinks I feel alone because it's like how it was.
3. I need my dad in my life because without him emotionally I wouldn't be able to be the way I usually am I really miss him even though he is on holiday but with him gone I haven't got him to speak to when I break down into tears.

Most of all I have realised who and what matters I haven't got that fog infront of my eyes anymore and I'm not going to let people use me when they only want me for certain things.

Our lives begin to end the day we become silent

about things that matter.

 

Feelings

My feelings are kind of all over the place, mainly concerning just one person.

I'm not a picky person but I don't try to get with every guy I see, so there is this guy I like and to be honest I thought he liked me too, finally a guy who was so funny, smart and very handsome, he never made me feel bad about myself, not the once!
Then next minute everything just goes and now we don't even speak, I fell for this guy so bad I just wanted to keep speaking to him because he made my day, he knew how to make me feel better, how to lift my self-esteem and now that is all gone and I don't know what to do.

Don't make somebody your everything.

Dreams

As I have already said I love music, I also love making music videos.
All today me and Lauren have been working on a music video and I will actually be singing for it, will put it up here ASAP.
This isn't the first music video I have ever made but it is the first one which I made with others and actually used moving images :) tell me what you think

Never give up on a dream because anything is possible

Why

People always ask why a certain thing happens, it's human nature and the most frustrating thing ever, not knowing why!

I am asking why a lot, things always when you don't want it to, but when you want it to, then it won't happen and that is life and you just have to put up with it no matter how much it kind of destroys you.

(Sorry this blog is more of a rant than anything)

Everything happens for a reason,

if it's meant to be then it will happen.

Feelings

I haven't blogged for a while but now I think it the right time too.

People go through so many traumas in life, nobodys life is a breeze but people get through the trouble, the emotional part in a number of different ways.
Recently I went through a rough patch and my way of dealing was not healthy but then I found a way to get myself through everything which is to keep busy so currently I am working on a music video with Lauren and recording a song with Betty although it doesn't fix the problem it helps for now until I got to face it head on.

Music also helps a lot, I could be at my weakest in life and feel like I have nothing left, but with certain songs they can pick your spirits up or even help you let the emotions out until it's gone and you can smile again.

Nothing can beat you unless you let it!

Next time I'll be braver, I'll be my own saviour standing on my own two feet - Adele

Emotions

When it comes to expressing emotions I'm probably not the best at showing them but I am full of the emotions inside of me.

Emotions were chucked my way today and all I could do was just stand there speechless while they waited for a reply, I could have answered in a number of ways but the only way I did was saying yes....

Everday I try and express myself but it's so hard, no matter what that person is to me. I wish this blog was better but it isn't and I'm sorry.

I should have said I love you but I never and now I'm wondering if I never because I was scared or because I know I shouldn't..it can't work....it won't work...

Just because I don't express how I feel, doesn't mean I don't feel anything.

Relationships

When the word relationship gets mentioned people automatically think boyfriend and girlfriends but there are many different types. You have a relationship with your parents, friends even enemies.

My dad says you will be able to count your true friends on only one hand, when I was younger I thought he was lying but as I grew up I realised just how right he was, unfortunatly friends have come touched my heart and then gone, but its the true ones that never leave, never give you the chance to feel that sadness of them leaving you.

I have friends which I think are amazing but I have one friend who I know I would find life 100 times harder without her, she is that one true friend on my hand which I pray won't let me feel the sadness of her going because she truly is that amazing.

Who is your true friend?

Valentines Day

valentines day is known as the day were couples buy gifts for each other and show how much they appreciate them and love them. When I think of valentines day its a day to appreciate the people around you, even if they aren't lovers.

I am so happy for the friends I have and the family around me so instead of moaning about being single on valentines time I will spend it with friends and say how much they mean to me because they may not be around forever.

Appreciate your friends, not just lovers.

Lifes little things

So I'm having the biggest problem ever finding the meaning, the inspiration for a blog I think it's because my heart is so confused about everything so why don't I just make this a blog about lifes little problems..

You will find that one person who touches your heart and just being around them can make the world seem better than it actually is, you will see the world as heaven just as long as your near them, there will be things holding you back fromt this person but as long as their in your life, does anything else really matter? Unfortunatly not even I know the answer.

Two years ago yesterday I lost something so important to me that still even to this day it makes me emotional at the thought of it, she was my dog called Jess and she was always there for me, I'm not denying she was annoying but it's those annoying things I miss the most, she is now my little angel that I won't see for a very long time but she has to know that I will never forget her. Family, animals and friends you have lost they will know you will never forget them for as long as you live because they touched your heart and now are securely locked in there.

Everyone has problems it's how you deal with it which

makes you the person you are today.

The Heart

Martin Luther King once said "Our lives begin to end the day we become silent about things that matter."

What would stop you from following your heart? Friendships...Family...Fear, well none of them should be an issue, friendships can get over whatever happens if you truly are friends, they will only care at the fact you followed your heart. I've had my time to shine so now you should shine too, open up, admit how you feel and live everyday as if it's your last, make mistakes and learn just don't give up on love.

Follow your heart not your head