Realism

People like to put themselves in a place where things can be great, they think everything is person, the suns shining, the guy you like likes you back but that isn't always the case.

In these past 2 weeks I have realised a number of things:
1. Who is going to be there without me always trying. I thought I had a number of people who would do that but I was wrong and as much as it hurts you just got to carry on.
2. why I tried to keep my Godmother on the good path and not the alcohol...path :s she was always there for me, when nobody wanted to know me not even family she would spend the time with me so I didn't feel so alone and now that she drinks I feel alone because it's like how it was.
3. I need my dad in my life because without him emotionally I wouldn't be able to be the way I usually am I really miss him even though he is on holiday but with him gone I haven't got him to speak to when I break down into tears.

Most of all I have realised who and what matters I haven't got that fog infront of my eyes anymore and I'm not going to let people use me when they only want me for certain things.

Our lives begin to end the day we become silent

about things that matter.

 

Feelings

My feelings are kind of all over the place, mainly concerning just one person.

I'm not a picky person but I don't try to get with every guy I see, so there is this guy I like and to be honest I thought he liked me too, finally a guy who was so funny, smart and very handsome, he never made me feel bad about myself, not the once!
Then next minute everything just goes and now we don't even speak, I fell for this guy so bad I just wanted to keep speaking to him because he made my day, he knew how to make me feel better, how to lift my self-esteem and now that is all gone and I don't know what to do.

Don't make somebody your everything.

Dreams

As I have already said I love music, I also love making music videos.
All today me and Lauren have been working on a music video and I will actually be singing for it, will put it up here ASAP.
This isn't the first music video I have ever made but it is the first one which I made with others and actually used moving images :) tell me what you think

Never give up on a dream because anything is possible

Why

People always ask why a certain thing happens, it's human nature and the most frustrating thing ever, not knowing why!

I am asking why a lot, things always when you don't want it to, but when you want it to, then it won't happen and that is life and you just have to put up with it no matter how much it kind of destroys you.

(Sorry this blog is more of a rant than anything)

Everything happens for a reason,

if it's meant to be then it will happen.