Meaning Something

Everybody will have one day were they feel like they mean nothing to nobody and they will feel so alone and honestly feel like giving up but there is one thing to remember.

1. You will always mean something to atleast one person, could be the person you least expect it but you're not as alone as you feel.

If I'm being truthful I feel quite low, I have problems like everybody and by the end of the problems you get tired keeping up pretenses so let somebody know you're having trouble and they will help you.

You're never alone.

Intelligence

The definition for intelligence is the ability to comprehend; to understand and profit from experience.

I have very recently been told by a teacher I'm not cut out for sixth form simply because I'm not very good at writing essays, just because I struggle with that doesn't mean I'm not smart I just have different strengths. In my media I got a B still think I'm not cut out for it?

Everybody is smart with something you just have to find out what you're especially good at. If people put you down calling you dumb then just ignore them you can do so much better than those people.

You can achieve anything.

Confidence

I haven't written a blog in a while because I haven't had the inspiration for it, I write my blogs with how I feel or conversations from the day etc, so I don't want to just write random words making sentences because then it just wouldn't be same.

Today though I have had the inspiration about confidence.
Everybody is atleast confident in one subject, hobby, around a certain person but what if you have to go out your comfort zone infront of a class full of people and do something which you could be terrified of doing.

A friend of mine today had to perform and truth be told at first she didn't want to do it, which for me upset me a little because she had a hell of a lot of time to prepare but didn't seem to make the effort, BUT in the end she did perform and I was so proud because she atleast tried, she went out her comfort zone and did that one thing which scared her and for that I got to applaude her.
now put that to your life if you are faced with a similar dilema DO IT, because if you don't you will regret it for the rest of your life.
Do the thing that scares you because when you look back you can smile at the thought you took chances.

Be confidence in yourself

Loneliness

The dictionary says loneliness is a feeling in which people experience a strong sense of emptiness and solitude. Loneliness is often compared to feeling empty, unwanted, and unimportant. Someone who is lonely may find it hard to form strong interpersonal relationships.

Today I must admit I have felt so lonely it wasn't the fact I was on my own I did have a few people around me but when they don't even notice you then it makes you feel lonely, you just want to scream out, get noticed but you know no matter what you do they won't see you because your not imporant enough.

So a task for people who feel lonely, unwanted and invisable, next time you feel like that then make people notice you, do whatever is needed (within reason), speak about your opinioins, because if you don't do it now then you never will.

You could be surrounded by thousands of people yet feel so lonely.

Hope, Dreams, Ambitions

Today hasn't been a good day I was suppose to have an audition to try and win an award for singing, lots of people were involved so I wasn't necessarily going to even get anywhere, but my nomination form wasn't recieved so now I'm not able to audition, when I found out, I was absolutly gutted, I honestly had tears but that is life and there will always be next time, it still doesn't stop me being upset though.

If you want something then no matter how many things go wrong, how many set backs you get or it doesn't happen fast it doesn't mean in the slightest that you can't do it, it just simply means it's going to take more time and effort than you though it would.

If you really want something then don't give up.

Siblings

When your younger a sibling can be two things:
1. A big pain who works on winding you up, almost to the point were you want to slap them.
2. The one person who will stick with you through thick and thin and protect you no matter what.

When I was little me and my sister use to argue a lot but there were times we got on so well, now that we're both older we do understand more about life and what the other one goes through. If I'm being honest I couldn't imagine having a different sister because she is the most perfect sister I could ever ask for.

I have spent most of the day with my sister and it was actually one of THE best days I have had in such a long time, it was calm, fun, we played on the Wii, those are the days that I cherish.

Look what's around you, you could be missing something important.

Childhood

Everybody has a childhood and people always at one time in their life want to relive it, many people want to relive it just so that the saddest thing in the world is scraping your knee.

I am now 18 and already miss childhood, the ability to watch Disney films without any problem. Well ok I do that anyway but not all people can.
I am currently watching Snow White for the first time ever tonight (I was more of a reader when I was little) and my favorite dwarf is Bashful =)

Hold onto your childhood because when you finally grow up you will just want your childhood back becase life isn't fair, it will beat you down at your weakest, you will have days when you want to give up. Have your childhood why you still can.

Don't rush to grow up.

Dreams

There are two different types of dreams, this blog is about trying to reach for your dream.

Everybody must have an inclining of what they want to do when their older or a scenario they want to play out, whether it's the music industry, looking after people or owning their very own business. Whatever your dream is why should you not try your hardest to get it, nothing is easy to get so your dream is going to be twice as hard to achieve.

Life can end at any moment. It is said that when you die your life flashes before your eyes, when your life flashes across your eyes would you like to relive your dreams or a life of misery?

Never give up.

Appreciation

Everybody is guilty of not appreciating what they have around them, you only realise what you have when there's a chance you could loose it forever.

I am very guilty of this and now I'm realising it far to late, it can just slip through your fingers and be gone forever.

Fight for what you have, if you want it then you really can have it then treasure every single moment you have because it could dissapear within seconds.

Appreciate what you have because you won't have it forever.

Growing up

Definition of growing up on the internet is 'To develop and reach maturity.'

It's inevitable we are all going to grow up and become responsible whether it's at a very young age or when you're older and you have to look after your child, but what really matters about growing up is how we achieve that.

You don't want to be a bad person growing up because then when you have finally reached maturity you would have lost everybody around you who ever loved you.
You want to grow up having fun being free for that bit longer, having friends around you.

I'm not saying when you reach maturity you're going to be no fun but that's the beauty of it you will be mature and responsible when needed but have that other side of you.

Have fun, take risks and just live.

Appearances

Everyone at some point in their life worries about their appearance whether it's their hair, a spot on their chin or just simply the clothes they wear but why does that actually matter?

Just because one hair is out of place, who actually cares? Imperfections are good in people it shows we're not all lifeless robots, many people fall in love with people's imperfections.

Go outside with messy hair, smile when you have a spot because life will seem even grander when the world is pushing you down but you don't let it show that it's beating you.

Embrace your imperfections don't let it take over your life.

I'm not perfect, I'm just me.

Music

Sorry I never posted anything yesterday I was off watching Paramore which is why I chose to write about music today.
The opening acts were 'Fun' and 'B.O.B' they were actually really good, but when it got to Paramore that is when the show really started it was absolutly amazing definitely the best concert I have EVER been to.

Music is such a big part of me, many people when they think of me think of music which I must say is a very big compliment in my books, me without music is like a swan without beauty.

Music can help so many people in different ways it can help them feel the emotion that their lacking in day to day activities, it could make their day brighter, calm down them.
Sometimes people may even want music to be their life/job, I know without a doubt I want to go into music there's no point in living if I'm gonna reach for what I truely want, people can do anything they set their mind to all they have to do is believe.

You can't be to careful anymore, when all that is waiting for you won't come any closer, you've got to reach a little more!

— Paramore

 

 

Aggression

Definition for aggression: The first attack, or act of hostility.

Everybody has anger in them, some more than others, yes I admit I have a temper problem and sometimes as much as I would like to think I can I can't always control it. I am in a proper big mood right now hence why this blog is about aggression.

There can be many reasons as to why you are angry maybe you are just becoming more and more invisable to the people around you, they don't seem to want you anymore, although that seems like a hurt feeling many people change it to anger.
Another reason is maybe somebody has put you down so much that the only way to fix yourself is to get angry at them, protect yourself just simple stand up for yourself.

I know I loose my temper with anybody really fast, to be honest I wish I never but I'm working on it, but that doesn't mean that you can down talk me constantly calling me stupid etc, I know I'm not the smartest person but atleast I try.

You always hurt the ones closest to you.

Self Harm

The definition for self harm is : Behavior which includes any deliberate attempt to harm or destroy body tissue. Self-harm is done without suicidal intent, but is severe enough to cause physical injury.

(I hope not to offend anybody in this blog)
I Don't understand why people self harm, I personally see it as a way of people craving attention when all it does is hurt the people around them. They wallow in their self pity finding ways of getting attention from all angles if they have a problem then why not get the help they need, if they speak up then people will be around to help.

I found out one of my friends self harmed to be honest it did ruin me, no doubt about it. I'm meant to be their friend yet I wasn't doing a good enough job to make them feel good about their lives. I want to say that I'm there to help whenever they need it, your my bff for life and it scares me to know that I could wake up and your gone forever it makes me cry right now to think about it. I don't want to loose you, I'll have to start watching shitty horrors on my own, who will I have to just talk about random rubbish with and we understand how each one feels about things. Who will I have to remember the memory about the banana peel which you just seemed over excited about.
I can't share those memorys with anybody else, you have me to help you because I'm not ready to loose you.

Don't give up so easy.

Family

On the internet it describes family as being a unit, or people descended from a common ancestor.
To people family can mean many different things some even call their friends family.

To me family means the people around you that stick with you through thick and thin, love you not cause they have to but because they want to, the people who help you grow into a good human being.

Sometimes people take their family for granted and just don't give them the time they need, I am guilty of that but now I am trying to set it right.

 If you grow up without a mum figure in your life then I can't imagen what that must be like, this is my proper Mum and  I am so happy about that because without her I don't know how I would face problems I have or how I would be right now because she is the most perfect Mum to me.I love you x

 This is my sister, we argue like mad but I know and she has proven if I have ever had a problem she would be first on the scene and help in any way possible, so I want to take the time in apologising for all the times I have ever hurt you or upset you. I love you x

 My Dad we also argue a lot but I do love him without a doubt. I wouldn't want to live without him and I feel sorry for people who have lost their dad's, I know don't want to. I love you x

All you really need is family

Loosing People

I have already written a blog about death which is one way of loosing somebody but it doesn't have to be death which makes you miss somebody there could be many different way.

One is them is when you don't see them as often as you would like maybe due to them living much further away or in some cases they just don't care for you anymore.
Another way is that they may have moved.

Even with these two types being so different it doesn't help the feelings at all.
I miss one very special person they live really close but they just don't have the time for me, they have different priorities, still now I still at the times we spent together even though it wasn't that long I knew at the time i was the priority even if it was just for an hour an week.
The other one I remember when I was little I honestly looked upto her, loved having her around but she loved the drink too much and that took over her life even though I was the only one that stood by her she has pushed me aside and promise to take me out etc, I would get ready and she would never turn up.

No matter how much either one of those people have hurt me if I could just have one day with them it would mean the world to me but I know I can't have that so I just have to stop dreaming.

Now thing to yourself

'If somebody is willing to forget you then are they really worth your time?'

Relationships

I was going to write about growing up but I've been looking through my emails and now I have changed my mind onto relationships.

I was once with a guy who treated me well but he thought I was going to cheat etc so for obvious reasons it never worked out, but this one email  just makes me smile and think what if:
'Im only here to help you, the reason you can tell me anything is that i talk sense to you. And you know u can always rely on me. If i didnt have you id be lost and i mean that. You really do mean alot to me and i seem to be the only one helping you.
Ive never h8ted you. Only loked after you.
I hope you see the sense.
xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Love you'

so that's enough about me, when you're with a person just be yourself around them let them in, the moment you hide yourself is the moment your relationship is doomed.

Being in a relationship: you get that fuzzy feeling in your stomach, you just want to be with that person just to see them or even think of them makes you smile to yourself and when you kiss them you just dont want it to end.
Being in a relationship is nice but it's not the end of the world if your single honestly :)

When your in a relationship don't forget the people around you.

Death

I was going to do my blog about something else but this fits in so much more perfectly with the day I've had.

I was cleaning Fiesta (rabbit) out and when I looked on my bed it had so much blood on it, I rang my sister crying begging her to come round she did, in that time I was waiting I was terrified thinking these could be the last moments I'll ever spend with Fiesta, I'm not ashamed to say I cried. Thankfully she is ok but death or almost death of a loved one makes you realise just how precious things are, they could be gone within moments, slip through your hands and be gone forever.

I am not trying to put a downer on your day I'm just saying treasure everything in life because it could be gone within seconds.

If somebody matters tell them, if you love somebody tell them, if something hurts you then don't let it break you because life is short and you don't wanna waste it on the little things.

Love

I believe that there is a soul mate out there for everybody, but in order to even have a chance with them you need to take a risk or two.

There are no dates set in stone or future written about love, you need to create it yourself, you never know the love of your life could be right in front of you!

I have never been in love I can now honestly say that, I have had very strong feelings, for example with this last guy I met I took a risk following my heart for him it didn't work out for me but who's to say it won't work out for somebody else, so take that risk and go for love because in life that is the strongest feeling you will ever experience.

Maybe your 'Romeo/Juliet' is wanting for you.

Tell people how you feel because they may be gone tomorrow.

Body Image

Everybody at some point in there life worries about their body image, mainly their size.

With celebrities every single imperfection is magnified so they do everything in their power to get perfection, although that isn't what being human is all about, every imperfection, little quirk is what will show your human, and some people may even find that attractive in you.
Celebrities work on becoming size 0 because they also don't want to be seen as fat. when little children see celebrities are so skinny they then feel the need to be just like them.

Be happy being the person you are! If you don't like who you are then nobody else will.

The Populars?

I am in a speak words of wisdom mood and it's about people.

In life many people become something there not just to seek acceptance from the 'populars' but whos to say they are the populars? Yes ok people may know who they are but does that really matter?
All people have their group of friends if you are yourself and they like you then why crave to be popular? Most of the time it's just a bunch of people not being true to themselves hoping for acceptance also.

You will grow up not knowing who the real you is cause you have lied so many times to people.

My bunch of friends are the wierdest bunch of people I have ever met!
One wears what people would call wacky clothes! Is a loud mouth book worm who is a total nut case, but if she wasn't like that then this world would be wrong.
Another one is so quiet but when you actually know her she is a loud mouth cow who takes me to maccies because she wants to.
All round all my friends are random mental losers and if I didn't know them then I wouldn't be as happy as I am now. :)

Enjoy the life you have right now because it won't last forever.

On My Own Video

Well this is a song that I did for my exam piece and the highlight of my first year of Performing Arts, before then I still didn't have all the confidence in the world with my singing but I got much more after this.

P.s Thank you to Jess for helping me with this bloggy thingy :P